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I can’t ever think of witty titles…so today it’s “stuff”.
Anyway, today I had kind of a stressful day. It’s hard to explain but, basically, I said something about someone (somewhat out of context) that I shouldn’t have to some folks I know. It was actually trivial, but the person I was talking about found out and freaked out that they were associated with something that they shouldn’t have been.
So I got stressed out.
This conveniently came at the same time as our leader at WW was saying, “Eat more dairy! Are you getting your two servings a day?” and I was like, “Well, I guess I’m not. I’ll eat more dairy.” So I bought some light string cheese and 2% milk for my coffee instead of half and half. The milk isn’t the big deal but the cheese is. I cannot eat one piece of string cheese as a healthy snack. I have to have three or four or five. Honest to god. It’s like crack. And I had some other stuff which, if I hadn’t had the cheese, I would have been okay at dinner. But we went to Arby’s. And I had fries. Bleh.
So I had too much to eat this afternoon after the anxiety-provoking situation. I didn’t talk about it with the person - I just kind of ran away - and the avoidance made me turn the attention inward instead of just getting it out. I get that. But how the hell do I get over that fear of confrontation? The person is not going to kill me or do anything. It’s not like I actually did anything wrong and the person actually knows that now. But I still haven’t talked to them.
I totally used to have this problem at my last job, but it was with respect to projects and just speaking up about things instead of trying to fix them on my own. I’m usually smart and industrious enough to go that route, but sometimes you really need the help of others. It’s not bad to ask for help.
I know some of you have had this problem. How the heck have you dealt with it? I know the root of why I am this way (childhood, yay) but that doesn’t change the fact that it happens in the present. I think, until I get a handle on that, I will continue to overeat when things get stressful. And I don’t like that feeling.
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